Believe Jesus is the son of God the last Adam who takes away the sin caused by Adam who was called a son of God being directly created by God. Through one man came sin through one man Christ Jesus comes life eternal. Sin separtates us from God. Jesus name means salvation as He shall save His people from their sin of all who put their trust / faith in Him. Faith makes us righteous and this is all our righteousness nothing but the life giving blood of Jesus Christ. Life is union and death is separation. Become united /alive in Christ by obeying the command of Jesus to die to self by going down into the watery grave of baptism (immersion) and come up anew living for Christ who lives in you having washed your sins away. Confess Jesus is the son of God, repent (turn the opposite way you are going) and confess you are in need of salvation/Jesus and set you sight on things above not on things below. When you have done that which is required in obedience to Christ God will add you to His church the body of believers who are given a spotless wedding garment to cover thier sin and when Jesus returns at His second coming the bride of Christ / church - ecclesia (called out) will be caught up to Jesus in heaven to live (united) eternally with our Lord and God Jesus Christ.
Here's hoping that my modest gift can help to lighten your heavy load.. my prayers and best wishes are with you Sister