As some of you may or may not know, I have received some news lately, both with my 15 yr old nephew being diagnosed with advanced Hodgkin's Lymphoma and the very same day finding out that my day had passed away.
For those of you that know me, you would know that my sisters and my nephew are in the UK and my Dad, in Germany.
I really have gone back and forth in my head around putting this out there, but the pain that I am feeling, and the need to be with my family right now, and a chance to say goodbye to my dad is overriding my pride.
The truth is, I am not in a financial space to be able to make everything happen, with flights to the Uk, Germany, Visas and covid requirements, it is all overwhelming, I just know that I need to find a way.
Anything at this stage will help, and I can promise you that I will always do whatever is in my power to gift the same support and love that I am receiving right now.
It is going to be a long road for Dylan (My nephew) but he is in the right place, with the incredible team at Addenbrooke's Hospital and I hope to be there with him for his first lot of chemotherapy.
As for Dad, well I hope to take him out to a memorial garden in the woods in Germany, surrounded by trees and nature and water with my step mum, have a beer with him and play him some Blues and remember him with tears and laughter and say Goodbye
Big long warm hugs xx